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Solitude

Laugh, and the world laughs with you;
Weep, and you weep alone.
For the sad old earth must borrow it’s mirth,
But has trouble enough of it’s own.

Sing, and the hills will answer;
Sigh, it is lost on the air.

The echoes bound to a joyful sound,
But shrink from voicing care.

Rejoice, and men will seek you;
Grieve, and they turn and go.

They want full measure of all your pleasure,
But they do not need your woe.

Be glad, and your friends are many;
Be sad, and you lose them all.

There are none to decline your nectared wine,
But alone you must drink life’s gall.

Feast, and your halls are crowded;
Fast, and the world goes by.

Succeed and give, and it helps you live,
But no man can help you die.

There is room in the halls of pleasure
For a long and lordly train,
But one by one we must all file on
Through the narrow aisles of pain.

– Ella Wheeler Wilcox



The Man of Sorrows -James Ensor 1891

한 겨울 군화발로 정강이 걷어 차는 시.

스물.
무슨 세상을 안다고
“씨*~! 어차피 인생 독고다이지” 싶었다.

서른,
마흔,
쉰.

‘Solitude : 고독’은 상황과 감정에 따라
매번 다른 느낌을 주는 묘한 시다.

아버지의 ‘걱정’과 같기도,
때로는 선생님의 ‘채찍’이 되기도하며

따뜻함이라고는 1도 없지만,
아주 가끔. 끝이 보이지 않는 길고 어두운
고통의 길을 홀로 지날 때…
함께 버텨주는 ‘친구’가 되기도 한다.